Monday, January 8, 2018

the heart does whatever the fuck it wants


"I'm attracted to [anyone] because he's such a mess.  I mean, the people I have loved in my life have never been easy to love.  I'm not used to normal.  I'm used to disaster.... I'm accustomed to working for love."

"He's like this incredibly beautiful Van Gogh painting with slashes all through it.  It's a Van Gogh. But look at those slashes."

"This is so pathetic.  I can't believe I need to ask someone with a doctorate in psychology whether or not my attraction to this man is unhealthy."

"I can see the person he could be, the person he almost is.  And I want that person.  I want to love that person.  I want that to be the person who tells me I'm hogging all the covers. "

"And suddenly I can see it all very clearly.  The insanity. The parallel universe of it.  How it mimics normal life enough to fool you while you're in it...  "

"Yet instead of rage, I feel sorry for him. "

~ Augusten Burroughs, eloquently describing what it is like to fall in love with the wrong person.

Excerpts from his memoir, "Dry."

Sunday, December 3, 2017

to like and not to like






"One of the heartening things about the plague of cell phones in my Manhattan neighborhood is that, among all the texting zombies and the party-planning yakkers on the sidewalks, I sometimes get to walk alongside somebody who's having an honest-to-God fight with a person they love.  I'm sure they'd prefer not to be having the fight on a public sidewalk, but here it's happening to them anyway, and they're behaving in a very, very uncool way.  Shouting, accusing, pleading, abusing. This is the kind of thing that gives me hope for the world."

~ Jonathan Franzen
from Farther Away

Thursday, November 23, 2017

disconnected







 "I want to be with those who know secret things or else alone. "
      ~ Rainer Maria Rilke